Support.

It has been a very few hectic weeks that have taken quite a toll on my blogging and life in general. I've been finding it's harder than normal to get out of bed and actually accomplish anything. It's been an uphill battle of sleepless nights, insanely long shifts, and an emotional roller coaster not even the best could stick the ride out on. 

This feeling of shortcoming (and dare I say failure) really leaves you with a sense of doubt and wonder why you even carry on. Why not pack it in? Why not just give up and settle for something else? This got me thinking about something, and that thing is support. More often than not you see people get their big break and they disappear. They are gone,and never look back. These people become characters of your war stories, since you never see them. You can't fault these people either. Maybe they are in a relationship that they are very committed to. Or perhaps they are starting a career and have their hands full. This is one of the sad realities of life. It feels as if they leave all those who were close to them behind. And I said to myself, that's not who I want to be. And that's certainly not who I was raised to be. 

With my head going into overdrive. I began thinking about all those who support me, those who look up to me, those who ride my coat-tails, and those who pride themselves on hating my game. Which by the way they people who hate on you are your biggest fans. They are angry and have a jealousy that they aren't you. 

But then there are those people that keep coming back. The people who will leave your life, and that you think are gone forever. And then they waltz back in. It has always made me wonder why? And then it dawned on me that everyone has a phenomenal support system and you never realize. No matter how bad you may fuck everything up, there will always be those few people that will have your back when all else fails. You may not speak to these people everyday but they are out there and have your back. 

For example, I have my family and that's a whole different kind of support. Your family knows you and they want to see you do well. However what makes a great family is one that will tell you when you are screwing up or about to make a huge mistake. "No really mom, you don't understand, Mexico is a totally safe place for tattoos!" Right. Sometimes you need to shut your mouth and listen to what your family has to say. The most important people in my opinion are the people that aren't family, yet you hold them closer than any family member. 

One example is a friend that I have that links my past back to me and brings everything full circle. I can go to this person with any crazy misadventure I have and it will bring us back to our times shared in high school. Good and bad times, happy and not so happy events. This is the same person that I can recommend a song to in as simple as a few words in a text message and they will return with something just as good if not better. 

I have my friend who took me under his wing years ago and assumed the role as a mentor of mine. Over the last several years has grown an awesome friendship and some really great times shared. Working on all types of projects. All types of road trips and tons of misadventures have been a blast and certainly a learning experience. 

These are the types of things that as society we need to sit back and appreciate. Too many of us are caught up in the things we have or the place we may be in our lives and we forget to stop and appreciate what we do have and the people that support us through the rough times.